Poetry By
Nilofer Neubert
Published on: 10/16/2013
A Tanka For My Secondary School Best Friend
I'm sorry for not being honest with you in our letters. Should have pasted photos of black hearts instead of cute boy bands.
Published on: 10/9/2013
The Phantom Boyfriend
He first announced his appearance in the middle of the night when my fourteen year old soul wondered why she was the one pinning hearts on boys who had eyes only for life-sized pin up girls after Nancy Drew failed to tuck me in. With closed eyes, I kissed my tear stained pillow the way I wished the boy who walked out of Math class earlier would kiss me. He was there when I was eighteen for the explosion of my inner pressure cooker, constantly reminding me that no boy was hot for my lips. He was there when I was nineteen for my desperate play: First Kiss. The lead actor: a boy who didn't go on his knees for me a boy who didn't turn up for his second act. He was there when I was twenty-two for the drama between me, the plane, my first boyfriend who took my heart to England. Dressed in the boyfriend's black hoodie, he swallowed me with his invisible arms, drowning in the musk of the unwashed security my boyfriend wore from nineteen till twenty-two. He was there when I was twenty-three for the return journey of my heart. Though he barely absorbed her tears, he was smart enough to gag her before she sang a regrettable opera. He was there when I was twenty-five for my second long distance relationship Each night being miles away made it harder to hold onto the notes of a skype musical. His skinless hugs gave me rocks to hold onto. At twenty-six, He cradles me from the birth of sleep till the micro second my husband comes home from his daily shifts at the restaurant. Once he sees the man who was chosen over him, my phantom boyfriend unwraps me, hides in the chest of drawers beside my side of the bed, waiting patiently, till he's needed again.
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